Not really Insomnia

I was again transferred to the night shift just last month and I am still adjusting to my schedule. I forgot how hard it is to sleep during the day - 6 months of almost in the morning shift and then they suddenly transfer you to the opposite schedule that they can think of. Sigh.

To be honest, this is the only call center that I know (well, everyone knows it's my 3rd call center, if YOU have been reading my posts, hehe) who makes a lot of changes to the schedule and the only one who sends the schedule EVERY WEEK. We live in the fear that next week, we may have a different schedule altogether. Really. Seriously.

From 530am-3pm, I was transferred to the 9am-630pm schedule then on the next week, my team and I got transferred to the 8pm-530am shift. Argh.

YES. I have a shift later and I'm already awake. I slept at around 11am today and awake now at 4 in the afternoon. The apartment next door is being fixed by the carpenters and they have been hammering away since this morning. I texted the landlord to see if they can stop the noise as I am trying to sleep and they did. Only for me to wake up after a few hours coz they started again.

Went out, didn't even brush my hair nor left my pillow, only to ask if they can stop it, and they said they can't because they have to finish it right away. They were removing the tiles of the sink that's why it's so friggin noisy - it's like they brought a whole slew of trucks over this small apartment where they're bulldozing everything. Grrrr. Better yet, imagine a construction worker using a jackhammer. I wanted to scream at them!!

Me being the understanding person, I just said,

"Okay po... sana po matapos na agad, di ako makatulog po eh. May pasok pa po ako mamayang gabi."

My goal was to make them guilty about it. Hoping that they'll have pity and STOP. That was around 30 minutes ago. They're still at it. !@#$%!!!!

I wanna sleep. When you're on this kind of job (call centers), small joys like SLEEPING is the best gift that you can give to yourself every-friggin-day.

Pano pa ako magiging productive mamyang gabi kung wala akong tulog?? (charing!!)

ZZzzzzzzzz.....

kami na!

To be really honest, we still are on the adjusting stage. Sometimes we'd look at each other and cannot believe that we're together- FINALLY. After all this time. What we have now is 5 years in the making. He's my bestfriend eversince I started working here in Manila, and we were inseparable eversince. I know every ups and downs that he went through, even his past relationships for the last 5 years. It was a struggle for us, because we knew, back then, that there was 'something' and we both keep denying that fact.

Fate?I guess. It was difficult the first few months as I felt so insecure of everything. Especially that our friends didn't know about it yet. Whent he time came when he himself told our friends about us, everything came to a reality. Everyone's happy for us. The girls even said that I gave them "hope". Hahaha.

Yes- he's been the topic on this blog for a few years now. And now, kami na.

Kami na talaga.

Ang tadhana nga naman!

thoughts @ 2am

I sometimes am the type of person who worries a lot and overanalyze over the littlest things. Sometimes it's a necessity because our job requires it - we handle different types of people and we're expected to see "growth" while they're under our supervision. It's a difficult job.


And it *is* very stressful. A few years ago, I see this job as a way of socializing, meeting new people, learning new things. Everything felt new back then - I was getting used to being outside every single day. It was nothing, I enjoyed every second. It felt like I was just playing, while getting paid for it.


After 8 years of doing this job, it now a different story. I have climbed up since then, felt the same way, but eventually felt how difficult it is to be looked up to and be expected a lot from. It's even more difficult when you don't have your friends around to keep you stapled to the ground.


It's my 3rd call center. I am grateful that I have a job, and I am happy with all the experiences that I continue to gain the longer I stay here. But everything just gets so damn monotonous! There are days when you practically drag yourself from your bed, to the bathroom, to the office. When you're at your desk, you just stare at the monitor til you find yourself dozing off while your eyes are still wide open. And then you do your stuff and you zone out again from what you're doing and it's another cycle of staring at the monitor, yawning in between and wondering if you'll get glaucoma from staring too much on the monitor.


Work's no longer fun like it used to be. I definitely agree that fun should come from what kind of team you mold, but, can you blame me? I'm just too tired - no recognition for all the work, no vacation (pahipan naman kasi mag file ng VL!), no "good job!" for all the the effort and passion you put into the job.


I am now the monotonous office worker who wakes up at 6pm, gets ready for work, goes to work, "work",then goes home again to sleep. Boring, boring, boring. I don't even get to talk to my bro and sisters anymore. The ony social time that I have is when I'm with Pol (thank God!).


Sigh. I really think I need a vacation. We're planning to go to Bohol then Cebu on the 1st week of December. Baguio by November (for Pol's bday). Can't wait.


Back to work.


Sigh.