Hay, Life.

I just learned today that someone I've known before back when I was still in eBay, killed himself last month. This guy was one of those smart-alecky types, and after you talk to them, you know that this person is one intelligent, smart person.

I watched the video he made before he killed himself. Man - I'm speechless. He just decided to stop, he had it with life. He said something about not being able to handle more misery and going through it over and over again. I realized, we all have our own choices to make. Rest in peace, Mike.

And here I am, battling through all my battles, hurting myself a lot of times in the process, and continuing with the battle through and through. And still, here I am. Sometimes, that temptation to just that is so strong, but then again, a voice inside me tells me, NO. I think, really, it's God's grace that's keeping me intact. I would have really freaked out and broken into pieces and have chosen to be just that ... but then again, here I am, facing it with strength and confidence and love.

This is what Faith can do. I walk by faith, not by sight.

"And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ." Ephesians 3:17b-18 (NIV)