"Every day I seem to lose you more..."

Having a hard time sleeping these days. I don't know if this is guilt that's bugging me. Here I am, working the GY shift, only on my first hour and I'm already thinking of you. Again. I cannot help but remember all the memories. And now this song's playing -- a song that you told me reminded you of me. Sigh.

And then there's another song.... and another. Can't it stop? Sigh. I keep wondering if you ever still think of me? Or even think of the things that we shared? Do you think, some people have a hard time coping with a loss of someone that they love, that person suddenly seem lost?
I feel in control-- and yet, when I look at myself now, it's no longer my old me. I used to be happy. I was happy being inlove with you. I was happy because I know that you felt the same way for me. I will never know if you really were. I miss our times together. Our talks and dreams. Your special hugs and kisses for me.

My heart still cries out for you. But you no longer listen.